Solstice Moon. What is that you might ask? When I started this blog it was right around the time of the winter solstice and also a new moon. The sun and moon were both at their darkest points. A new moon and a new sun. The balance of light and dark was off, darkness was overwhelming light. In my life I was in the midst of the darkness, seeking the light. When we have enough light to see where we are going or what we are observing, we are better able to understand what it was that frightened us in the dark. So this blog will detail my journey back into the light.
solsticemoon said,
January 6, 2009 at 7:08 AM
My name is Mori. I am a 30ish Mom of one. I am just starting my journey into single motherhood. On this blog you will eventually encounter many things. There will be discussions of spousal abuse, abortion, death, birth, parenting, multicultural relationships, astrology, law of attraction, natural health care and whatever else I happen to toss out. I am here to be completely open and free, I’m only telling a few of my most trusted and dearest friends so that I can be free with what I say. Some of what I will discuss is controversial and some is quite painful. But I need this to be told. I know I am not alone in these things I have experienced. I hope telling my true life story will help others.
solsticemoon said,
January 8, 2009 at 9:10 AM
An poem by Rainer Maria Rilke in Rilke’s Book of Hours:Love Poems to God
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I believe in all that has never yet been spoken.
I want to free what waits within me
so that what no one has dared to wish for
may for once spring clear
without my contriving.
If this is arrogant, God, forgive me,
but this is what I need to say.
May what I do flow from me like a river,
no forcing and no holding back,
the way it is with children.
Then in these swelling and ebbing currents,
these deepening tides moving out, returning,
I will sing you as no one ever has,
streaming through widening channels
into the open sea.
~
And now you know a lot more about me, I am glad I came across this because I could never be so eloquent on my own. “I want to be free of what’s within me so that what no one has dared to wish for may at once spring clear without my contriving.” Free me of my thoughts, pain, expectations, illusions, fears…. those are things with in me but they are not me. Those things are not “being”, they are ego run amok. What no one has dared to wish immediately manifest without my interference or effort! “May what I do flow from me like a river, no forcing and no holding back, like it is with children.” Effortless and free, currents, widening, ebbing, receiving, deepening……
All Time Love said,
January 9, 2009 at 2:13 PM
That’s beautiful, SM.
Just let your words flow without abandon. As you probably already know, it’s so freeing to let yourself go without fear of judgment or having to censor yourself for fear of who may read it.
Only a few people know about my blog. I understand your need to keep it private, and would encourage you to be very selective in sharing this space. Use this like it’s the center of your heart right now –be careful who you let in, but from it everything must flow.
You’re very brave.
Louna Cee said,
February 14, 2009 at 2:21 PM
Thank you for the inspiration, All Time Love.
I, myself, never imagined that others in similar situations, past or current, would dare to express their experiences in a blog. I am thankful that I found your blogs. Thank you for sharing and motivating others.
I have just started blogging to motivate me and see what I can do to better my life. However, I still find it difficult to blog about my abusive relationship. It’s like there’s a wall preventing me from fully sharing but I enjoy reading your blogs, as in a way you are also speaking for me and others. thank you!
Just like I am in process of regaining sanity, I am posting my thoughts one step at a time…
Louna